The Real Stuff

Going Down with Sundial: The Real Stuff

This is the official home of my thoughts, updates, and blogs. Here you’ll find the core of my writing, from personal milestones to my latest explorations of sex, identity, and the world around me. Polyamory, kink and connection through an autistic lens.

This is a line drawing of a man’s midriff. You see the point from just above his belly button down to just above mid-thigh. He is wearing jeans, they are open, at the waist and you can see the top of his briefs where the zip is undone. His belt is open and hanging down either side of the opening. He is topless, you can see his belly button and there is a hint of muscle at the sides of him drawing into his loins. There is a hint of a line of hair down below his belly button and another leading up towards his chest. If you have a particularly good imagination, you can imagine the shading in the jeans to the left-side of the zip indicates his excitement. There’s something so sexy about belts and jeans!

You May Fuck Him: You Give us Permission to Fuck

I’m so excited to share this with you; I’ve added audio to this post, originally published on the 20th of June 2024! It’s the recounting of the time my man gave our buddy and me permission to fuck, before he went to work. A reminder: the last time he visited, my man gave our friend with benefits and me explicit permission to fuck each other while he was at work. By letting us each know separately on the morning of his arrival, my man created intense sexual tension between us – and a very deliberate foregone conclusion.

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A photo of my ass, lightly whipped by a wooden spoon. It's a close up of my ass, you can see circular marks left by the imprint of the spoon on it. My man took this right at the start of the beating. This picture originally accompanied the blog I wrote about Trying Out Pandora Blake's Sensational Spanking Position.

Trying Out Pandora Blake’s Sensational Spanking Position: lying on the bed

I was extremely hormonal at the time of writing, so this blog is scatty. My mind is a bit all over the place and my emotional state is restless. Please excuse all the tangents I go off on. This blog was inspired by Pandora Blake’s video: Sensational Spanking Positions 101: Lying on a Bed. I watched the video on Friday, got all excited about it, told my man I had to try it and made him watch the video. That evening, we did it! And it was so hot. Here’s an account of me being spanked lying on the bed, with a lot of digressing, sorry.

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Open Air Punishment: Stripped, tied to a tree and belt whipped.

Remember we visited him for the first time recently, I wrote up our first desperate encounter in another blog, “Visiting Him for the First Time: A Disobedient Fuck-Doll owns his Dick”? I’ve finally dared to write about the punishment that followed it. BDSM outdoors and uhh, still reeling from this, it was so painful and so hot! He proved himself a worthy dom and best of all, I was a very good girl!

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A black line drawing of three glasses containing liquid. The glasses are all different, a wine glass on the left, a smaller low stemmed glass in the middle and a tall glass on the right. There are bubbles of different sizes rising from the liquid. Represents a threesome of different people.

Opening Up our Relationship: our very first threesome

It’s funny, how once you’ve done a thing a few times, you become accustomed to it. My last blog got my man and me reminiscing on our very first threesome and it brought back just how hot that night was. As promised in that blog, here is a telling of our very first threesome. I’ve tried very hard to keep the account of it true to the reality, though my memory is blurry in places. I hope the nervous excitement and the magic newness of it comes across well.

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A picture of a mobile phone. It's done in a cartoon style. The display shows a smiling white heart balloon attached to a dark pink heart. The display background is pink.

Two became Three: How we opened up our relationship

Sharing fantasies with your partner can be so wonderful. For us, it changed our sexual experience together, fundamentally! I’ve been wanting to share with you, the story of how we opened up our relationship, the experiences we had along the way, and how we got it together with our buddy. So here it finally is, how Two became Three.

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A black line drawing of a man's arm. He is well muscled and is flexing his biceps. It shows shoulder to wrist and a small bit of underarm. Crosshatching picks out shadow detail.

Plan for a new Blog: Mr. Muscles rescues me from danger, punishes me and fucks me to oblivion

A blog about my obsession with the idea of writing a fantasy about a huge man I saw on screen recently. I talk about Mr. Muscles, the guy from my shower room fantasy, same guy who turned me over his knee in the gym that time. And also my favourite porn movie. It’s a connected ramble, with a purpose, and I hope you enjoy it 🙂

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