The letter was waiting for me when I came home. I had been expecting it for a few days and when I recognised her handwriting on the envelope my heart skipped a beat. I quickly kicked off my shoes and carried it shaking to my favourite chair.
I sat in the living room by the window, sunlight streaming in from behind me. I opened and discarded the envelope and took out the letter, admired her beautiful script, breathing in the scent of the paper. I imagined her seated at a desk, leaning over close to the paper, smiling as she wrote, the way she would push her hair out of her eyes absently. She was following up on a previous correspondence, but this time her words were much more direct.
Meet me in my dreams.
I gazed around the room, my brow furrowed in confusion. I resumed reading, deeply curious and desperate for more.
She explained there was a small pill hidden under the stamp which I should take at dusk.
I snatched up the envelope which I had discarded on the floor earlier. Peeling back the stamp carefully, I found a small square of blue paper. I held it delicately between my fingers then placed it on the table for later.
I paced the house for agonising hours; the wait felt almost unbearable but eventually the sun began to set. I sat back in my chair by the window, turned on the table lamp and made myself comfortable. With some trepidation I placed the tab on my tongue. It tasted of nothing but gave a peculiar fizzing sensation which subsided after only a few seconds.
Rapidly, I started to feel dizzy and shaky. My vision began to swirl and I felt myself drifting into a dreamlike trance. My breathing became deeper though my heart was racing. I felt blood pulsing through the veins in my neck, my limbs weakening and helpless, powerless to resist the descent into my twilight sleep.
My world went dark, black as obsidian. I was very much aware of the sound of my breathing and the rhythmic rising and falling of my chest though I felt as if I was floating. I could no longer feel the chair I was sitting on. I looked all around the infinity of space. The vast cosmic darkness soon became dotted with vibrant colours, studded with neon flashes which darted past me.
The darkness began to crackle with blue-white electricity. Despite my eyes being closed I had to screw them tighter shut still as a reflex against this blinding light. The light dimmed slightly, became a swirling cloud of particles and shapes of all hues. A voice echoed in my head, reassuring, kind and achingly familiar. The particles began to coalesce into a human form before me, taking shape and becoming at first translucent then finally opaque, solid. The silhouette was undeniably her. She moved aetherially towards me with hands reaching out to take mine. With each step she took on more colour and definition. She wore her beautiful smile, beaming at me, almost jumping with excitement and disbelief.
“You came! I have so much to show you!”
I took her hand and pulled her to me.
She reciprocated, drawing closer, gazing into my eyes with a sense of wonder. Her cheeks swelled with delight and she opened her mouth to speak, swimming closer still through the void. I could no longer make out her words, just a sense of overwhelming desire. As our bodies met for the long-anticipated embrace we didn’t press flesh on flesh, instead our bodies began to fuse, like two clouds merging. Her legs snaked round behind mine then pulled. I felt a glowing warmth as her feet and legs slid effortlessly into mine; she held my hands in hers, interlocking fingers, then our fingers, palms and wrists slipped through each other. I saw our arms transform from pairs to single limbs before my eyes. Thighs, hips, torso all joining warmly, she still leaned her head back to keep her eyes watching me, darting across my face to read my astonishment and acceptance. I had never seen someone look so happy and at that moment I felt an immense sense of pride and achievement for her.
Eyes still open I could hear her heartbeat next to mine, then slowly the twin double beats synchronised and became a single heart, pulsing in tune with the universe. As one we began to spin, tumble in all directions, my vision became a blur of stars and cosmos, bright vivid nebulas. I felt her surge of passion throughout, a joint arousal in single form. She spoke to me clearly, thanked me profusely for joining her and invited me to share her carnal dream.
The star-scape fell away; our single form writhed and twisted, suspended in fluid, surrounded by a thin translucent membrane beneath a bright moonlit sky which bathed us in a diffuse silvery glow. What felt like four hands – mine and hers, caressed and explored, pulled and scratched at our single body.
My hands teased at our thighs, I pulled my palms up towards our sex, keen to finger and toy; instead the area between our thighs was a profusion of hypersensitive bumps, slick and moist. The merest touch sent shivers and shocks through our core. She held my hand lightly on the nodes, guiding me to apply wide pressure. Another hand, I had no idea now if it was mine or hers, pulled at the back of our head. Our legs twisted and flailed, toes twitching with the mounting sensations. I guided her hand and fingers to rub and pinch at the nodules while still maintaining a light pressure, gliding my fingers over the area, a curious contradiction of our shared form, a paradoxical mutual masturbation. Our chest tightened, nipples electrified, sending tingles to our throat and fingertips; I felt our spine arching, our body still spinning in the cocoon of amniotic fluid. The more we turned and danced, the more our body became tangled, mummified, with infinitely long hair trailing, binding us, shutting out the world, bringing warm darkness which only concentrated the otherworldly erotic wonder.
Hands, lips, whispers, biting; our body convulsed, began to tremble as the most intense passion swelled, bursting into a violent and all pervasive orgasm, temporarily blinding our sight and deafening us with the rush of blood pulsing though our head. It slowly subsided; She began to pull her body out from our shared form with deliberate care, just enough to look into my eyes once more, still smiling and bursting with love.